:??: last night i was somewhere ...they were kids to play and i was looking them and tought why human should have kid...why they make kids...and i tought why iam human...if i could be something else..why not a bird? why not sea..? why not some people something from other spaces and other planets...why iam here in this land...?
u know why miracle happend to me...and i could get the answer after all after almost a year...maybe less...cause i asked many times...nights.no matter how much i cried...but i asked to have this...and finally i could..get..it...im glad to have it...but iam sads inside cause i think i wasnt really worthy..power send me an angle...i was touched by love but i lost it...trough spaces trough times...there is no home for me...no where i can be glad inside and peaceful...
i will ask again from the power maybe happen onceagain...that miracle...
but why all this happend...maybe that was meant to happen to change me inside and outside...u know i talked to stars...and moon manytimes...and cried...there were no human to hear me to know whats going on in me in my heart..but iam sure they could read me...
wanna ask power to change me to someother type of energy...i can gave my life to something else...this humans...arogant and selfish...some r kind and nice..but we always lose them...like i lost...
many times i tought if i could have a friend...close one but not really human ...from someother planets...or just a strange friend...in some ways...and still i wish...
many nights will come and i will cry and will think of my star...many nights i will think and will listen to musics and they will play my heart...and my tears will fall down...slowly...
there r many words inside me...they wont come out ...there is no word..no word for them...when i close my eyes...i will see smiles..sadness and happiness i will feel touches and smell all them...who could read me ...is there any power...?! really is there?
sometimes im fighting with it and sometimes i just dont care...to it..u know there is no one for me to share what i feel...:-(
delam khili tange...khili tange...khili tange....
no i wont b able to say whats going on in me and in my mind and heart...let my tears come down...
if there is any power.....iam calling u...iam talking u...heyyy its me ... please set me free...let me go...dont push me to be alive...and doing life...dont do....set me free..love needs to be free ...love will live in freedome...it will shine for ever...when it feels freedome...if u set me free and let me go i will think i will be sure that u loved me..by all ur heart...then i will love u by all me...all iam...all this energy that i have ...i wont be forgotten...i will live for ever...i know u love me so show me that u can let me go if its hard...but only uuuu can let me go...only uuu
then i will b waitting for u in some other spaces...to see u once again ..playfull and happy...like never...
im hopeful u do this...
kiss u all ur heart...:'(